18 January 2015

"If absence makes the heart grow fonder, what does presence make?"



The cry "I'm not dead!" brings a certain Monty Python plague scene in mind, but I'm going with that line anyway.

December was tough, like a miniature purgatory. An endless maze of appointments, decisions, countless hours of apartment hunting (with great success), job hunting (with zero success), saying goodbyes to dear friends and old ghosts, and packing and packing for days while trying to get through all this with an infection in my lungs that still hasn't fully mended. 


Winter solstice and the holidays passed somewhere in between but I don't remember much, except that I felt like I was wrapped in cotton and surrounded by loved ones. Just what I needed when the waves of stress were washing over.

blouse + skirt / second hand    jewelry / Blood Milk


In the first steps of this new year we moved away from the wolf border, and I hope there'll be good adventures ahead. New year, new city, new possibilities! Most things are still unpacked and the apartment is a total mess, but I'm too happy to let the chaos get to me. I can already feel last year's sadness peeling off and the creativity flowing back, like oxygen or life blood. There's still a lot to do before I'm all settled in, so my hibernation might continue. I hope you are all well.

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  1. Good luck and I hope you enjoy your new home!

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  2. I hope you feel better soon, being sick blows, I struggled with pneumonia in my final year at Uni and it was disastrous! It's good to hear you're enjoying your new place and I hope you have many great opportunities awaiting you. :)

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    1. Thank you! :)
      I'm sure that the huge amount of stress triggered something in my lungs, but I'm all better now. It was hard to breath for about two months, I had to get asthma medications to recover. I even started thinking that I may have had a feverless pneumonia at some point (if that's even possible), the symptoms matched and all but they didn't take any blood samples due to the lack of fever. But no matter, it's all over now!

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  3. So beautiful! I wish you much happiness in your new place and a swift full recovery from illness. Good luck with the job hunt as well!

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    1. Thank you so much sweetling! I've been hunting for a job like a madman, but haven't caught my prey yet. I sure hope I will catch something soon, I'd hate to get starved. :D

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  4. Always soo beautiful. I hope that positive and creative energy stay in your life.

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  5. You were missed! Good luck with your new life and I wish you all the best in New Year! Hope to hear from you soon :)
    Greetings from Croatia!

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  6. I am so glad to see you here! I was checking again and again for a New Year's post. I got a little worried! I hope you are feeling better. <3

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    1. I know it's awful of me to hold this radio silence for such long periods, but I've been so focused on my worries that time disappears. And thank you, I'm all better now <3

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  7. Työllistyminen on hankalaa, vaikka kuinka väitettäisiin että vain laiskat paskat ovat työttöminä. Onnea työnmetsästykseen. :)

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    1. Kiitoksia! :) Mä en käsitä sitä laiskuuden leimaa mikä työttömiin niin usein lyödään, työllistyminen kun ei todellakaan tunnu olevan aina omasta aktiivisuudesta kiinni. Itsekin kävisin enemmän kuin mielelläni töissä, ei vaan ole helppoa löytää sopivaa paikkaa ilman suhteita, välillä sitä on ylikoulutettu ja välillä ei ole tarpeeksi kokemusta. :/ Työnhaku käy mun mielestä ihan työstä, imee ainakin tehokkaasti energiaa muulta elämältä!

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  8. Upea nainen! <3 mistä muuten olet löytänyt noin hienon pöydän? :D

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    1. Voi kiitos paljon! <3 Pöytä löytyi Valtteri-kirpparilta silloin kun se oli vielä toiminnassa, mutta samanlaisiin törmää varmasti hyvällä tuurilla kierrätyskeskuksissa ja nettikirppareilla. :) Petsasin tuon itse tummaksi, eli tuunaamalla saa superhelposti muokattua omantyyliseksi!

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    1. True true, usually even the most painful changes are good.

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  10. Onnea uuteen kotiin ennen kaikkea! :) Ja niin kauniita kuvia taas, tuo asu on suorastaan lumoavan kaunis niin kuin sinäkin! Tuo paita ja nuo hihat. ♥

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    1. Voi kiitoksia ihanasta kommentista! <3

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  11. Sorry to hear you've been ill and that you've been troubled. I hope this New Year brings many great things for you! It always brightens my day to see that you've posted. Congratulations on the apartment and the move!

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    1. Thank you, it means a lot to me to hear that my posts brighten your day! I have a feeling this year will be great, it has been pretty exciting so far. :)

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  12. SO nice to see a new post! We (anonymous people around the globe) missed you.
    Following your recomendation, the other day I saw What we do in the Shadows and it gave me a very much needed laughs, thanks!
    Hope your health gets better right now. And the best energy for all your new plans.
    Best wishes to you!

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    1. I've missed you guys too! <3
      Glad to hear you enjoyed the movie, can't wait to see it again myself. Even the thought of it made me chuckle a little!

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    1. I miss you guys too! I hope to get back on the blogging track soon.

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  14. Good luck with opening all the boxes, I know what you're going through since I moved a lot during the last few years. Hope you enjoy your new place and make lots of fond memories! :)

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    1. Thanks so much Ellone! :) It's a wonder how long it usually takes to empty all the moving boxes, I still have all my frames and some other stuff wrapped up and tucked away in cardboard boxes.

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  15. I'm glad you're back and I hope you get well soon. :)

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  16. Ihanan mystinen tuo viimeinen kuva! Onnea uuteen kotiin! ^^

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  17. Enpä muista nähneeni tässä blogissasi susta kuvaa pitkä hame päällä. Sopii loistavasti sulle! Tykkään pitää sellaisia itsekin lähinnä kesä aikaan. Just tuollaisia tyylikkäitä, pelkistettyjä mustan värisiä.
    Toivottavasti kaikki menee siellä hyvin, ainakin siltä vaikuttaisi. :) Muutokset on joskus todella tarpeen, vaikka ne tuntuvat massiivisilta ja pelottaviltakin joskus. Tai no, ainakin minusta. Nyt ne kyllä olisi tarpeen, vähän liian seisahtanut tilanne ollut tässä useamman kuukauden ajan, liittyy tuohon mitä mainitsitkin eli työn metsästämiseen. Sitä työtä kun on vähän tarjolla ja työllistyminen itsessään on hankalaa, kuten Hannabella tuossa aiemmin mainitsikin kommentissaan. Se on hyvä niiden ihmisten naukua "laiskoista työttömistä" joilla itsellään on työpaikka alla. Kaikki on nykyään korvattavissa, mikään ei ole varmaa. No mutta, tarkoitukseni ei ole lannistaa. Pääasia ettei jää tuleen makaamaan, missään asiassa. :)

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    1. Ai, on mulla muistaakseni jokusen kerran ollut! Tai sitten mä oon unohtanut vaan postailla asut tänne, tykkään kyllä kovasti maksipituudesta.

      Muutokset on elintärkeitä, vaihdos on selkeästi tehnyt hyvää. Eniten itteeni harmittaa se että muuttoa olin tekemässä yli vuoden ennen kuin oikeesti tuli viimeinen pisara ja lopulta kaikki kävikin niin nopeasti! Seisahtunut elämä on kuluttavinta mitä tiedän, ja varmaan siksi viime vuosi olikin mulle niin lyijynraskas kun tuntui ettei mikään asia edennyt ja aika vaan valui pelottavaan tahtiin.
      Työmarkkinat tuntuu tosiaan tällä hetkellä lähes toivottomilta, mutta yritän kyllä sinnikkäästi ja toivoa menettämättä hakea erilaisia hommia, eiköhän joku juttu vielä nappaa! :) Onnea sullekin ihan hurjan paljon työn metsästykseen!

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  18. Get better soon, and good luck with the move! I love the pictures, especially the second one; so witchy!
    Also, nice Monty Python reference :)

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    1. Thank you so much!
      Glad to hear there are other Monty fans in here ;>

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  19. I'm happy to see some news on your blog! I hope you will get better soon and I wish you the best for this new year, hope you will enjoy your new flat.
    Kisses and positive vibes from France.

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  20. Onnea uuteen kotiin :) Jos en nähnyt ihan väärin, näin isäsi töröttelemässä pakettiautolla muuttokuorman kanssa.

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    1. Kiitoksia! Ja apuva, kummassa kaupungissa näit? Jos oli vanhempi, tummahiuksinen- ja hipiäinen herra kyseessä niin oli varmaan mun isä. :D

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  21. Good luck in your new city! I hope we will see more of you around here :)

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  22. I am happy to see that you continue blogging. Where did you move to? I hope you can post more often!!!!

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    1. Oh hon, I hope so too!
      I moved to Tampere, and I'm not even sure why. :D I just felt like I needed a change!

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  23. Good to have you back!
    I wish you all the best with the new apartment! My December was occupied by apartment hunting too - I know how you feel ;)

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    1. Thank you! Were you succesful with your hunting? :)

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    2. Yes! Renovation is still going on but I think we'll move in around April :)

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  24. I wish you a lot of power, health and luck for your future. It seems to me as you had a really stressy and hard time and I hope that soon it will be better for you.

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    1. Thank you so much sweetie, I appreciate your wishes <3

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  25. It's so good to see you back! Lots of positive energy and strength for all the new beginnings - but as fas as I can see you're already very optimistic, so just keep going that way <3

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  26. I suppose that you moved to the capital?)
    I missed your blog, you're my inspiration! Do not fall ill! :)

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    1. Thank you for your sweet comment Grace!
      I didn't move to the capital although at first I was going to. I picked a city I don't know so well instead, and so far I really like it here. ^^

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  27. Post more often! We miss you*

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    1. I miss you too! I hope to be able to post more often soon.

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  28. Glad you are back...can't help but love your blog!

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  29. Moth , missed you ! You have been an inspiration and so much to me .
    I hope you come back to lighten our nights and darken our days . Good luck!

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    1. Thank you for your lovely, lovely comment! <3

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  30. Tampere? I saw you one day at the flea market ;) Wish you all the best <3

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    1. Oh my! Ei ihme, kirppareilta mut varmaan helpoiten löytääkin. ;> Saa tulla moikkaamaan jos toistekin törmäät!

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  31. ...I was going through your old posts, how much I missed them. Best of luck Moth, write again soon ... <3

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    1. Oh what a lovely comment, thank you Velyra! <3

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  32. That blouse and skirt is fantastic!

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  33. Girl, if I were rich, I would pay you just to make posts on your blog everyday. You're so gorgeous and your photos are great, love it.

    http://www.cerejasnotopo.com/2015/02/delineador-caneta-classic-line-da.html

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    1. Hehe! I'd love nothing more than to blog even as a side job. :)

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  34. Moving is such a hassle. Good to see you!

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    1. Thanks! Moving really is a hassle, but it's also rewarding!

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  35. I hope you are settled and love your new place.

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    1. Thank you, it takes some time to settle in but I do like it here. :)

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