If we die, we'll meet again in Valhalla

I'm having the worst school hangover.

hoodie ~ Valhalla by Ovate /  baggy top ~ Actual Pain  /  wedge shoes ~ second hand 
claw necklace ~ Fashionology / tights and the rest from misc. places

For the past two months that were so silent in my blogging, I did more schoolwork than in the past two years. And that's saying a lot. At the same time I managed my job so I've been trying to survive like a superheroine here. Superheroes usually dress up in tights and flexible fabrics and I must shamefully admit that's been my most usual look during this time. Sitting in front of a computer for 15 hours a day wearing tight skirts and a corset? Mmm... NO. 

I'm currently living in a tight symbiosis with my lovely Ovate Valhalla hoodie. This is the look of today, I felt much like a modern jersey witch so I had to start making little shaman dances there, just for the occasion. My love said that I also look like a jedi knight or a Dementor, of course I took it as a compliment!

The reason for my complete absence is simple. I knew I had to save my skin and be cruel to my social relations and cut off some things from my life completely, in this case roller derby and this blog. I often felt like a mad scientist, burning the midnight oil to draw conclusions and ideas and experiments at a crazy pace, discarding all other things. And this is exactly what saved me, because this week I heard that I'm going to graduate soon! I must admit that I'm very proud of myself, although I'm not going to believe it before I get the papers in my hands.

And I feel that my thesis turned out pretty nicely, I will show you some peeks later. :) 

I hope you've all been well!

HBF cabinet portraits

Oh-la-la! Here's our cabinet portraits by Atelieri O.Haapala from this year's Helsinki Burlesque Festival. The theme was Burlescopolis, for me that drew instant feeling of 20's glamour, biomechanics, Metropolis and Blade Runner (add lots of hearts in all those key words). The festival is a true treat for both eyes and soul, so many dazzling performances and outfits to be seen.

In the first portrait we're in our work uniforms, in the latter in our more casual evening gowns. I also have other photos from the evening still waiting in the depths of files but I'm not sure if it's too late to post them, after all it's been over a month already.. time flies at the speed of light. I enjoyed the whole festival immensely again, can't wait for next year's festivities! ♥ 

And here's one from last year, featuring me and a tad creepy Mr.Moon. I guess that slightly suspicious grin is the reason why I didn't dare to sit on his lap..

You can check out Atelieri's absolutely wonderful work on their page: *click!*

I used to be your girl, now I sit and conjure spirit worlds

Hello dears,

I could tell you how sorry I am for being absent for so long and getting some of you worried in the process, but what does it mean to be sorry when you truly have no other choice? My days begin at 7 in the morning chime and end just before the stroke of midnight, including a full day at work. When I finally drag my bones home there's a mountain of schoolwork waiting for me. They don't greet me like a tail-whipping bundle-of-love dogs but much more like leering, sneering monsters. The good thing is that even to my own amazement I seem to handle those monsters pretty well.



When the only free time of the day means grocery shopping and doing the laundry, I believe you see why there hasn't been time for extra inspiration and creativity. And they happen to be the main ingredients for my blogging. But the good news is this situation will pass in a month or so! I'll be back, like Mr.Schwarzenegger once said.

So, this little ounce of free time is for you. The look of this Saturday and some lovely current things!

- Comics. Bought two new Batman graphic novels a while ago, loving both of them, both in art and story. The Black Mirror is really disturbing even at my own scale that can bear pretty much. I still (and maybe even because of that) love it and highly recommend both! I might give some peeks into them in case you're interested. HUSH contains some lovely love moments between the Bat and the Cat, must admit that it was one of the top reasons why I bought it, hehee.

- My thesis. I've heard people are supposed to loathe their thesis works, but how could I hate mine when it's all about Edgar Allan Poe and pop-ups? Well, I do remember some tough, dark days and the writing part doesn't feel so tempting (haven't really had the time to start that part and I've only got two weeks to finish it, yay!), but I do enjoy exploring the difficult technique and sometimes even succeeding at it. Pictures might follow when I print the works in a physical form. :)

- Super foods. This isn't a new thing for me since I've consumed them for quite some time, but right now I'm all excited about a couple of new finds in the area. I took a chunk from my first salary and invested it in delicious power foods. Spirulina algae is my new favourite, it works like magic! 

Also, the other great thing about salary is that I can actually buy my every nutrition in organic mode, whenever it's available. For me, investing in quality food is the most important way of spending money, you truly are what you eat.

- Music, especially neofolk ballads and soundtracks at this precise moment. I love to listen to these melodies while working, they wrap me just in the right foggy mood. Here's a few examples, I always add only a couple of songs and it all ends up becoming a list..:

I would also add the new season of Game of Thrones here, but I still haven't had the time to check out the first episode! I'm so excited to see it! Have you seen it already?

Push The Sky Away

Scattered images from the past and the present and of the cold core of this winter that seems to linger on forever and ever. The photos tell a story of my inner landscape better than I could describe in a written form. I'm slowly starting to lose track of time, it's rushing towards me at such a painful pace and I feel like I'm bound in its iron cage. I simultaneously love and abhor this rush, it feels wonderful to work and accomplish things but free hours are a rare luxury. Almost extinct.

So, now that one of those rare free hours appeared I just wanted to say hi to you. And share this song of the moment. I hope to be back soon but I don't have it in my power to make any promises. Take care, darlings and darklings, I hope you are all feeling well. ♥

Light eyes and dark minds and feel nothing

Colour code of the day; silver bullets and black as black as midnight on a moonless night. Or as black as the moist ink on my thesis sketches. Those creatures on the paper consume most of my daily hours and when I escape them at night, they invade my dreams.

I rather enjoyed this odd outfit, silver deer antlers and hoof-like shoes and new shimmery lids to dream under. This dark and silvery colour scope seems to be my code for most days, some of you have asked don't I ever get bored with black and I can say that I don't really miss wearing colours. This, like all sides of style, might change in the future, who knows! I love colours, but I don't need vibrant shades around when my imagination is already filled with them.

Quickly the silver found its way into my suitcase too. Tomorrow I'm heading off to Helsinki Burlesque Festival weekend, the train engines start to roar in the early hours of the morning and I still have no clue on what to wear! Sounds so familiar..! So I'll just pack some treasures and conjure up something from the chaos when I get to the headquarters, a.k.a my sister's sofa. Sounds like a plan.

I wish you all have a lovely weekend!

I'll be working part-time at the festival so feel free to come and say hi if you happen to see me. :)

Weekend rollings!

♥!

Last weekend was a roller derby weekend! Needless to say it was a blast in more than one way, I'm still covered in nicely purple bruises from neck to toe. We had a scrimmage workout with our own team on Friday and a more formal scrimmage game on Saturday, against a group of lovely Rollin' Ragdolls from Jyväskylä. The final score was 252-75 on our scrimmage team's (Pilluminati) favour, yayy! 

I even scored a few points myself, jamming is just often so nerve-wracking that I prefer hitting and blocking other ladies. Although I'm really working on my zen peace, I'd love to do more jamming just because I love speed so much! None of that speed was present on Saturday though, the floor was new to us and slippery like hell on my hard wheels. Now I know how Bambi felt on ice, damn I need a pair of wheels with some more grip!

Unfortunately there's not so many photos I can publish right away, so the jumping group pic and the after party outfit will have to do. :) There's many games and even a couple of bootcamps coming up in the months of spring, so there's loads of derby pics ahoy!

Outfit was captured by my friend, thanks hon! 

Dances with Wolves

"From beasts we scorn as soulless, 

in forest, field and den,

the cry goes up to witness, 

the soullessness of men"

-M. Frida Hartley

I look just like Jon Snow here, haha!! Game of Thrones Season 3, please come soon.

Winter jacket, gloves and tights are from mom, biker boots are my sister's, dress is also second hand and the bag is from Lindex, I think. 
Silver jewelry (not really visible here) from MoonRavenDesigns and Fashionology.

I've been visiting my childhood home with my sister for a few days now, and will depart for my own home tomorrow. My dear mom was kind enough to snap these winter stroll outfit pics for me although she pretty much hates being on both sides of the camera! For starters I'd like to highlight that the collar in the jacket is 100% fake. I would NEVER wear genuine fur, not even in vintage. Never. The jacket is made of recycled wool and polyester and I got it from my mom through H&M's discount rack. So I guess double thanks to her are in order. ♥

And now for my other subject.

Something horrible happened in this town a while ago, something that makes my blood boil like hellfire. And I wish to share the cause of this feeling, regardless of usually keeping this blog mainly for shallow things.

Some local hunters were caught red-handed by the law while illegally preparing to kill wolves. You know, those painfully beautiful and wise animals that have every right to coexist in this northern land. This however happens to be something many people in my country can't understand. Innocent wolves are slaughtered day by day, merely for the nudges of fear in the feeble hearts of men. While fighting against poachers in other countries I almost forgot how this happens in my own one as well! It's tragic to witness how homo sapiens hasn't evolved from the caveman days, but still trembles in the unnecessary fear and scorn towards other animals, reaching for security in guns because their closed minds can't wrap around the beauty and diversity of nature. No creature is as dangerous as a human suffering from fear.

There's no reason to hunt these magnificent beasts to the brink of extinction (there's only about 120 individuals left here!), there's nothing that could ever justify this persecution. Makes me ashamed to belong to this race, but I still hope that some day compassion and a wider form of intelligence will reach these people, I do. I just wish I could do more to help.

My rant, for now, ends here. I wish you all a good and peaceful night,

and I hope that the future generations might still be able to hear the wolf's howl slicing the air.